Where we've been -- where we're going
Inspired Home Office and I, we've been using a desk that's been *fine* for the last two years. I put it together myself. It's really fine. It's big. It's the right color. It's just -- something's not right anymore.
I have this theory that as your business matures, your space grows grow along with it. The current desk cost me a hundred dollars to put together: two IKEA legs, a 2-drawer file cabinet and a closet door I bought at the Habitat ReStore.
It works. Did I mention that already? It works, but lately it feels cobbled together. Just like my business felt two years ago. They fit together back then, my cobbled-together business and matching desk. Two peas in a pod.
Before that, I used a scratched-up yard sale desk as my business home base. I bought it when all I has was $30 in cash in my pocket and I needed something, anything with drawers right now for my start-up. Compared to that desk, my current, right-height/right-color desk is a vast improvement.
Encountering resistance to making positive change
Today, it feels like Inspired Home Office is ready for her first pair of heels, her first work suit. My money-fear, my inherited potato-famine fearful side says, "But what if we can't afford it?" What if what you really need is too expensive?" This voice shows up because it wants me to be cautious. It wants me to not stretch too much into unknown territory. If I get too good a desk, that might mean that the business will get too mature for me to handle. Scary. This voice wants me to be safe.
Go toward what you want
And yet, that's exactly why I want a different, more me desk -- so I can grow. Having a visual, tangible reminder of my dreams, well, that helps encourage movement. If I got a desk that wasn't cobbled together and missing a leg, what would that tell the Universe about how seriously I take my business? What would this new, improved desk tell me every time I walk in here in the morning to work?
"I'm ready for more." I'd be saying, "C'mon, business, let's help a few more people this month that we did last month. Let's give our clients even more support and encouragement. Let's run like a business, not a hobby."
Matching the outside with the inside
There's nothing wrong with a desk that is good enough. This isn't judgment on myself or on other businesses that aren't at this place yet.
It's also not a money-buys-happiness thing. It's about consistency - Inspired Home Office has matured a lot in four years. We're not a start-up anymore and it's time for the space to match that.
Plus, I just keep thinking about it. When I keep thinking about something, I know it's wise to pay attention. It means is that I'm ready to be less cobbled together. After four years in business, I'm ready to have my space more deeply reflect the competent, creative, loving professional that I've become.
Tolerate not knowing how it will turn out (it's good for you)
That said, I have no idea what my new desk will look like -- that's what creating a vision is for.
So that's my next step -- dreaming up what I want it to look like. If you happen to use Pinterest, I'm creating an inspiration board to collect ideas. I can create a budget. I can pay more attention to the critical features I currently use that I'd want replicated in a future desk. I can make calls and do research. It could be months before I act, but that's the creative process: 80% dreaming and 20% action. I just know I'm ready.
How about you?
Have you ever chosen a desk (or other furniture) as a way of marking a transition in your life or career? Feel free to share below!